Mid Life Metamorphosis

Every day I write a story in my head and kick myself for not finding a way to write these thoughts down. I recently gifted myself a portable keyboard just to remedy this problem so letโ€™s see if I actually use it.

This last year, I started writing two books. Alas, not one is finished and not one is even close to done. But itโ€™s a start, so for 2018, letโ€™s see if I can accomplish something. Iโ€™m setting my intention now, Iโ€™m putting it in writing, and Iโ€™m telling you people about it. Apparently that action is supposed to make you feel more accountable and gives you incentive to get it done.

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Iโ€™m in my 40s now and it is hard to admit it. As Iโ€™m writing this, Iโ€™m sitting in an airport waiting for my flight to board while I listen to a girl who just turned 21 talking to some guy who is not much older. Ahhh, to listen to youth.

Regardless, hitting my 40s has changed my perspective and life motivations. I wouldnโ€™t say mid-life crisis because itโ€™s not really that catastrophic. I am going through a metamorphosis of sorts. I reflect on my past and I am not that same girl armed with an MBA in hand and working 12-hour days at Lโ€™Oreal USA while living the quintessential New York City lifestyle.

Iโ€™m not even the California chick who was working a high-powered corporate job and jet setting all around the world on behalf of company business. Iโ€™ve been to 6 of the 7 continents, and on a nice executive budget for the most part. Maybe one day Iโ€™ll make it to Antarctica. And platinum status? Yes. First class 95% of the time. That seems like a lifetime ago and I am forever grateful for that experience, but really I donโ€™t recognize that #bossgirl.

Now my identity rests on the fact that I survived stress-induced, life-threatening sepsis and thankfully became a mom. Gone is my hard charging life. Most days I prefer to hang out at home, eat well, sleep well, and exercise faithfully.

But I still struggle with my career. It is hard to reconcile my old life with my new one so I am in this perpetual state of finding out where my talents lie so I can use them to serve the world. Because, isnโ€™t that why we were created in the first place?

My career as a marketer served me well so I have a nice consulting practice. My current clients are a Godsend. They provide interesting stimulation and learning while giving me the flexibility to focus on what matters most to me – my family and closest friends.

My son is almost 4 years old now, and I cannot believe it. Ry and I have been together for almost 10 years and unless I look at old pictures, many days it feels like weโ€™ve just begun. They say that the days are long but the years are short, and that absolutely rings true for me.

So, as we say goodbye to 2017, Iโ€™m open and excited for new possibilities. I wonder what this next year will bring?

Iโ€™m looking forward to this adventure called life, and those taking this trip with me. You know who you are – thank you for ever being my supporters. I love you so much.

Does anyone have any cool goals for 2018? Share them with me!

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