Mid Life Metamorphosis

Every day I write a story in my head and kick myself for not finding a way to write these thoughts down. I recently gifted myself a portable keyboard just to remedy this problem so let’s see if I actually use it.

This last year, I started writing two books. Alas, not one is finished and not one is even close to done. But it’s a start, so for 2018, let’s see if I can accomplish something. I’m setting my intention now, I’m putting it in writing, and I’m telling you people about it. Apparently that action is supposed to make you feel more accountable and gives you incentive to get it done.

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I’m in my 40s now and it is hard to admit it. As I’m writing this, I’m sitting in an airport waiting for my flight to board while I listen to a girl who just turned 21 talking to some guy who is not much older. Ahhh, to listen to youth.

Regardless, hitting my 40s has changed my perspective and life motivations. I wouldn’t say mid-life crisis because it’s not really that catastrophic. I am going through a metamorphosis of sorts. I reflect on my past and I am not that same girl armed with an MBA in hand and working 12-hour days at L’Oreal USA while living the quintessential New York City lifestyle.

I’m not even the California chick who was working a high-powered corporate job and jet setting all around the world on behalf of company business. I’ve been to 6 of the 7 continents, and on a nice executive budget for the most part. Maybe one day I’ll make it to Antarctica. And platinum status? Yes. First class 95% of the time. That seems like a lifetime ago and I am forever grateful for that experience, but really I don’t recognize that #bossgirl.

Now my identity rests on the fact that I survived stress-induced, life-threatening sepsis and thankfully became a mom. Gone is my hard charging life. Most days I prefer to hang out at home, eat well, sleep well, and exercise faithfully.

But I still struggle with my career. It is hard to reconcile my old life with my new one so I am in this perpetual state of finding out where my talents lie so I can use them to serve the world. Because, isn’t that why we were created in the first place?

My career as a marketer served me well so I have a nice consulting practice. My current clients are a Godsend. They provide interesting stimulation and learning while giving me the flexibility to focus on what matters most to me – my family and closest friends.

My son is almost 4 years old now, and I cannot believe it. Ry and I have been together for almost 10 years and unless I look at old pictures, many days it feels like we’ve just begun. They say that the days are long but the years are short, and that absolutely rings true for me.

So, as we say goodbye to 2017, I’m open and excited for new possibilities. I wonder what this next year will bring?

I’m looking forward to this adventure called life, and those taking this trip with me. You know who you are – thank you for ever being my supporters. I love you so much.

Does anyone have any cool goals for 2018? Share them with me!

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